Happy Valentine's day.

Well, there's timing and then there's timing... Just had a phone call from my solicitor to let me know that my decree absolute has been granted. I knew there was a reason I hated Valentine's Day.

Screw you St. Valentine, and all you (allegedly) stand for.

New year, at last.

Very glad 2011 is over... surely 2012 has to be better... Has been a rough few weeks.

http://anyotherwoman.com/2011/12/on-divorce/

That is all.

Well what do you know.

Managed to do something I've been meaning to do for ages and write the story of the divorce. Amazingly didn't make myself cry but it was harder to make it flow than I expected. And then I sent it to the lovely girls at http://www.anyotherwoman.com and they liked it. Er, who'd have thought it?

DND

...which stands for Decree Nisi Day.

Today.

Next stage of the divorce. First stage of the rest of my life.

It's funny how quickly not being Mrs C anymore feels natural and actually good. Not bad. Positive. Free.

Waking the dead.

Back home with my dad for the weekend and went to mum's grave this afternoon and had a little chat with her. Told her about my week, my new job, about M. I liked it that her grave was absolutely covered in flowers -not just ours :-)

I just so wish everything was different, even now.

Enough now.

Terrible day.

Spoke to M earlier for the first time in nearly 6 months, about what he wanted to do with the stuff that's still here (ie. in my house, which I will be selling soon in view new job). We were both coldly and icily polite to one another. It was horrible.

And I MISS MY MUM.